Jacqueline

Debi, I hope so, as at this moment in time, that I lost my partner less than three weeks ago, I cant for the life of me see what the reason was-is…but yes,  have always believed in ” everything happens for a reason..” although I cant see the reason he was taken from me on that fateful day, as i know he would have never have left me…I am sure…[Read more]

Trust me, I have just lost my partner of 19 years, 17 days ago, ( he died at home unexpectedly in his armchair after coming home from taking our dog to the pet groomers, ) and so far I have lost 15 lbs of weight, ( 1 st -1 lb, and I have primary progressive MS. Trust me, lose someone close to you, your weight will automatically just fly…[Read more]

Quoting Ed

Jackie

” My condolences, again. I’m glad that you’ve now shared this with the rest of the group so that others can offer you their support. We can’t be there to hold your hand but you know you’re in our hearts.”

Thank you Ed, and everybody, can I please ask you all to continue praying for me and to give me the strength to see mys…[Read more]

Yes my right hand, although to look at it, looks identical to my left hand, so only I know how it feels. I used to describe it a shrivelled up dried leaf, it feels as if the coating has come off and has a daily constant mild pins and needles which at times makes it harder to use especially fiddly things like putting the butterfly backs into the…[Read more]

Quoting Ed: ” Good work Jackie. I have to ask, however, might it have been possible for your other half to have dropped you outside the hairdresser and then gone to park the car? (And will be seeing a new profile picture of you with your new “doo”)?

Replying to Ed:

Ed, well yes, but after the last time he done that it was after the 9,30am…[Read more]

I quite agree, and would you believe it? the first thing I asked  for when he greeted me at the front door ( the place was empty ) was if I could pay a visit to the loo, as I was absolutely dying to go. He ushered me out to the tiny and rather cramped backroom.

Debi, I guess you are the same as me when it comes to going anywhere?  we cant, nor w…[Read more]

I would like to think I take after my late father, he was from what we call ” a rough and ready ” family. I do feel that I am becoming more like him, especially as now I use all these positive Idioms that he once used, it is only lately I am realising what a positive person he was. I wish he was alive now to keep me focused on the good’s of life…[Read more]

I achieved the walk to the hairdressers, it was a hard slog as the top-join of my right leg was still actively doing its electricity shocks, whilst walking from A to B over cobbled stone ground, the area is now pedestrianised and where my other half decided this morning to park the car was not nearer-easier but further-harder, so I was not pleased…[Read more]

Achieved.

Here in UK and at various MS Therapy Centres of which I was a member of the Bedford-Northants just before I moved to our new address, they ran Mindfulness courses but one had to put their name down and they only ran them when they had enough people interested which could take several months, of course I was the first one to place my name on the…[Read more]

Like many MS’ers, I suffer terrible almost daily ” stomach bloat, ” and I know much is down to the foods and liquids I eat and drink. My lower stomach bloat does affect the rest of my MS body.

Debi, yes, I was in a tiny box room of an isolation ward, mid summer, no window to open, just a tiny jar to open from the bottom, I was trying to get what air I could, even the door was closed and I wasn’t allowed to venture out into the corridor. I just remember laying dead still on top of the bed, with the box rooms walls closing in on me,…[Read more]

I have only done mind over matter the once, and that was when in isolationist ward with myself and my then new baby who contracted conjunctivitis…I had a hot-cold fluctuating low-high temperature and used mind over matter to get myself cold, after I was wringing out sweat, and fall back to sleep.

Personally, I feel MS is too complicated to find a one size fits all cure.

Oh yes, that ” heavy leg ” syndrome, mine is the right leg, quite embarrassing really having to lift it up to get into the car, I think I have the knack to it now.

Nor mine, and if there ever is, it will only be given to the chosen few, or if you win the lottery one might be able to jump the queue and pay privately for this miracle cure.

I have always said, ” no one goes through life unscathed.” Just because someone looks good on the outside doesn’t have any reflection on what is going on in the outside or inside. We only daily live in our own shoes. As the well-known idioms go, ” put yourself in someone else’s shoes, ” or ” dont judge a book by its cover.”

If I have any good moments that bring back the closest feelings of how my body once felt when normal, this would happen late at night and just before I am ready for bed, and of course when this ” normal ” feeling has no use to me. I have often found myself walking and gathering up speed walking backwards and forwards from one end of my home to the…[Read more]