To Define My Reality With MS, I Choose Optimism

I am an optimist in a pessimistic world. A fish out of water. I hold hope to ward off messages of defeat. In a world rife with suffering, hope is essential for soul survival. In my world with secondary progressive multiple sclerosis, it has been my saving grace.

There is nothing contrived about my persona. I have grown to become the woman I am today.

I cultivated a new perspective after years of living in the problem. I found the negative narrative useless. Like quicksand, the suckhole enveloped all of me. The struggle du jour, while reality, became an identity. It was not sustainable. I wanted more from my life.

I enrolled myself in several workshops to learn about, then heal my mind. Three-day intensives turned to weekly classes. The stories we tell ourselves often handicap us far worse than any disease.

Once I was able to identify those counterproductive nuances, I made peace with each before letting them go. The release was both cathartic and frightening. The integrity within forbade excuses. In that weightlessness, I grew.

That was over 25 years ago, and long before my odyssey with multiple sclerosis. I credit my mindset to being able to coexist with this disease. I can hold the realities of life with MS and choose hope, cling to my faith, and set goals.

Being an optimist does not mean I am ignorant. I fully comprehend the realities in my world and that of the world around me. I choose to focus on aspects that propel me forward as opposed to holding me back.

I still experience pain and fatigue, worry about my family and those I love, and fear this disease. However, none of these are drivers in my life. While their factuality is undeniable, their power is not. I decide that.

The title of my column is “Silver Linings.” A silver lining is a sign of hope or light in an otherwise negative situation. I see silver linings because I have lived amid the darkness. I savor hope after experiencing its countersense. Unless you have been in the dark, you can never fully appreciate the light.

Although I choose light, darkness is an inevitable part of life. Choosing optimism is not ignoring the dark but taking it for what it is. Darkness without the storied narrative is nothing to fear. It has now become a sanctuary where I find calm and respite. Even in times of chaos and pain, I define its realm.

And so can you.

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