31 Days of MS: Living With MS Has Launched My Radical Self-discovery 31 Days of MS: Living With MS Has Launched My Radical Self-discovery by BioNews Staff | March 3, 2022 Share this article: Share article via email Copy article link Photo Courtesy of Tatiana Andjelic Day 3 of 31 This is Tatiana Andjelic’s (@tatianaandjelic/@msonthemind)Ā story: I laughed a lot when I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in March 2019. My diagnosis was a tangled string of trial, error, and realism. I was lucky to work primarily with health providers who held my hand by offering reassurance based on truth. With their unvexed reactions to my limp hand, my doctors soothed any anxiety I had about my failing dexterity. I was more concerned by the impending needles and MRI machines that would later rule out anything other than the neurodegenerative disease. While there were pockets of sadness and distress, acceptance blanketed every piece of news I received in the process. It wasnāt until acceptance turned to anger that I realized I was on the nonlinear path of grief that entire time. I was angry that I couldnāt go for a long drive on a sunny July afternoon because the heat would turn my hands to mush. I was angry that I physically couldnāt stay awake past 9:00 due to fatigue. I was saddened when a treatment trial failed, or when the MRIs yielded new lesions. I didnāt know how to introduce new friends or dates to my illness. In the two years following my diagnosis, after my doctors let go of my hand, I would learn that chronic illness comes with symptoms other than the physical. The severity of multiple sclerosis varies from person to person, but I think there is a universal symptom most patients experience: mental health struggle. I laugh to power through, but Iām still grieving as I grow. The optimism is not disingenuous, but it does not tell the whole story. My disability is invisible yet has an impact on every decision I make. Itās easy to feel isolated, and itās a feeling I fight against every day, no matter what invitation I may need to decline next. Living with MS, while challenging and debilitating, has catapulted me into radical self-discovery. I donāt know where Iād be now if I hadnāt kept my chin up then, but Iām happy to be in a place where I can simultaneously be real about the downsides while seeing the light that exists. Multiple Sclerosis News Today’s 31 Days of MS campaign will publish one story per day for Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month in March. Follow us on Facebook and Instagram for more stories like this, using the hashtag #31DaysofMS, or read the full series. Print This Page About the Author BioNews Staff BioNews, the owner and publisher of this site, employs science writers and editors, most of whom have PhDs in the life sciences, as well as veteran journalists, who ensure stories are well-written and easy to understand. Our stories undergo a comprehensive fact-checking and editing process to confirm accuracy, objectiveness, and thoroughness in order to best serve our audience of patients and caregivers. Tags 31 Days of MS 2022
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