When Challenges Arise, Remember Your Resilience
A numb, weak leg. Yay. Another thing to add to the list of crappy challenges I’ve had to face this year.
If you ask me, it’s all been a bit too much, and I’d like to get off this ride and get my money back, please.
I recently rang my nurse in a panic, thinking I was at the mercy of another relapse. I’ve had these symptoms before, just not to this extent. The nurse was convinced it was a flare, but we won’t know for sure until I have another MRI. In other words, I don’t know if it’s being caused by new lesions on the brain or an exacerbation of my current symptoms.
Welcome to another endless chapter of life with MS!
Recently, I’ve been finding it harder and harder to lift my left leg. It’s difficult to get one leg in front of the other without collapsing into a wall or somebody nearby.
Dealing with my leg suddenly having no strength made things interesting.
This particular flare was scary because it was the first time my “invisible illness” had been visible, and it was very different from the sensory relapses I’ve had before.
This time around, I’d been prescribed another medication, amitriptyline, to help reduce the numbness. Amitriptyline came with some unique side effects I hadn’t experienced before.
The two that most affected me were a random patch of itchy skin on the back of my shoulder, which I couldn’t reach, and balance. I’d never taken a medication that made me lose my balance before.
With loss of balance and my leg making me fall into things, people must have thought I was certainly drunk.
When challenges like this arise, I become stubborn. I’ll ask myself, “How can I?” For me, this is essential to build problem-solving skills.
The most annoying thing is when people ask me, “Why don’t you just ask someone else to do it for you?” That tells me they aren’t acknowledging my strength and resilience.
I’d be happier to hear, “You’ll find a way, Jess. You always do.”
Others might think that choosing the easier option is best, and that’s fine. But I don’t. It’s up to me to decide how I view and react to things.
I have a lot of discipline, which sometimes drives me crazy because I end up doing everything myself. However, my mom brought me up to be independent, and I will forever love her for that.
I believe that when things get tough, we can always find a way to get through them.
“The truth is, everything will be okay as soon as you are okay with everything. And that’s the only time everything will be okay.” — Michael Singer
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