The Chosen Ones

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We are familiar with the “why me” moments? I reference this often because it is a recurring subject in the lives of people with chronic illness. As a little girl I’d ask my parents why my heart is sick, and as an adult, I still ask why have I had to bear so many obstacles. When I received my MS diagnosis I queried again, “Why?” I pondered what I could have done to warrant these illnesses, knowing that they are not reflective or retributive of my actions. I acknowledge these thoughts are of the flesh and of course, I am made of flesh.

I had a situation occur a few days ago that rocked me to my core. I was walking up the stairs on my way to an event and I fell. I couldn’t believe it! It felt as though my leg just gave out. The fall frightened me, and it sent me for a ride aboard the “why me” train. I cried for more than one reason. The fall physically hurt, it wounded my pride, it was unexpected, and thoughts of the future surfaced. I wondered if that was a premonition of what’s to come. Thoughts of ambulatory issues, giving up my “high heels,” and the possibility of disease progression flooded my mind.

The shoes may sound trivial, but most people who have had something taken away from them will identify with the thought process, even if the object is different. I enjoy shoes, and the fact that I can still walk in them indicates some disease stability. Falling brought all of that into question. I closed my eyes hoping that nothing else would be taken from me at this time. I composed myself and went on with the day, laughing and smiling on the outside, while crying profusely within.

The day after I fell, my local heart walk was held. I had the support of my family and friends, and my soul was overjoyed. The day was a temporary respite from all of the anxiety I have been experiencing. Silently, I wondered if I should even walk. I was in pain and did not want yesterday to repeat itself. Pushing aside my fear, I walked with my team and made it to the finish line. I felt accomplished because this was another small battle won.

That day I met two ladies walking to honor the memory of their loved one. They wanted to hear my story and I recounted all of it. I told them of my extensive congenital heart disease journey and my more recent journey with MS. I shared the highs, lows, and blows life has given me. I shared that regardless of all of the mountains I had to climb, I still love life. The two women looked into my eyes and told me they see why I have been chosen. They said they see my light.

We were literally crying together, and I will never forget that conversation as long as I live. In that moment I had an epiphany. During the times I am discouraged or sad, someone comes along or something happens to declare that I have been chosen. I am reminded that even through moments of darkness and brokenness, the light still shines through. From the depths of my being, I feel I have been selected to live this life. I surmise that my bold spirit, compassionate heart, desire to live and refusal to remain silent have led me to this point. I am the vessel that has been assigned to represent life in all of its pain and glory, and I live to tell my story.

My creator wrote my book of life long ago, and who am I to question it? I am certain that there will be other times when I dither and ask why? I am assured that my answer will be found in the eyes of another, in their words of encouragement and in moments when I realize there is a reason for everything. Remember that we never know who we are inspiring. Someone is watching and our light shines brightly. Blessings come unexpectedly and they remind us of the beauty that remains in this sometimes ugly world.

I don’t opine that any of us would have chosen this path, yet, it has been chosen for us. We must travel it. Why not us? We are brave and we can do it. Thanks to those two beautiful women for pouring into me, blessing me, and reminding me of the light within. The intent of this column is to pour into your spirit. You are light and you’ve been appointed to shine yours. We are the chosen ones.

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Roseanna Happy Mango avatar

Roseanna Happy Mango

Thankyou! May God continue to bless you.
I love reading your articles. You are a true light for me!

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Teresa Wright-Johnson avatar

Teresa Wright-Johnson

Dear Roseanne,
Thank you so much for the kind words. You inspire me. May God Bless you as well!

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Tonia Hodgins avatar

Tonia Hodgins

At 21 I prayed for the day I didn't need the stupid cane. At 31it came because now needed my walker. Prayed harder for the day my walker was in the past. At 37 that day cam and so did my new wheelchair. Be careful what you wish for! I learned at 43 to never let the challenges I have Define me. This Gucci high heel wearing city girl learned to adapt and overcome. I have adapted how I get from point A to point B and discovered the greatest most liberating tool to use to take my life and independence back...electric wheelchair (or moms gogo cart as my son calls it). I go from 1 end of manhattan to the other 3times without having to recharge! I am the same crazy chick I've always beenI am just more dangerous and I will run over your toes if you can't keep up with me!

Remember...
Poor me my feet hurt
Poor me I have no feet. I'd rather be me than be someone else just because they don't have MS

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Tonia,
Thanks for sharing your story and thoughts. I appreciate it. You have inspired me. Bless you.

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Suzanne Sparks avatar

Suzanne Sparks

Your story is an inspiration as you let your light shine! Christian author Max Lucado says that in our darkest moments, instead of asking, Why me? We can ask, What now?

Suzanne Sparks

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Suzanne,
Thanks so much for your response and for reading the column. I appreciate you!I have gained great insight from reading some of Max Lucado's work. Thanks for sharing and best wishes to you.

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Lorraine Hanson avatar

Lorraine Hanson

You are a true inspiration. I will, each day look into what you have been through and still going through today. I ask everyday "why me" but I shall no longer ask that question. I shall live each day to the fullest, and see the light within.

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Teresa Wright-Johnson avatar

Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Lorraine,
Thanks for the kind words. I appreciate you. Let your light shine because you are inspiring many.

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Janet avatar

Janet

I agree, thank you, I am a little further along the pathway than you, but the inspirational way you describe everyday difficulties is wonderful & I love the brevity of your articles, the links to other related material if required and the humorous way in which you bring to light the more ‘difficult’ subjects. Overall showing us that we are not alone in dealing with this monster.

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Janet,
Thank you so much for your kind words and for reading the column. There are many of us battling this illness and we will never be alone. We have to encourage one another and take one day at a time. Best wishes to you and yours.

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Rashmi avatar

Rashmi

In India,this week we celebrate the festival of lights, Diwali...
A light which triumps over dark, over bad...
Be the light that brightens others...

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Rashmi,
Thanks for sharing! Very inspiring! I agree that we have to be the light. Best wishes to you and yours.

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Debi avatar

Debi

Love this Teresa! Your bright light shines through your column and the encouragement you share with others!

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Debi,
Thanks so much! I appreciate you!

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Pamela Kirby avatar

Pamela Kirby

I totally understand the high heel shoes! I love shoes but as you have stated in your column I believe as a Christian I have been chosen to be that light to the people we come in contact with everyday. If it could lead someone to Jesus it is worth it for me personally! I pray that we all choose to have a happy spirit in a world where so much negative is reported and the good is not. God bless us all as we do what we can to make a difference.

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Pamela,
Thanks for your response. I agree with you! May our spirits be happy as we use our lives to make a difference. Bless you.

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Terri avatar

Terri

Thank you, I needed to hear this today and every day. As you said, My Creator chose me- who am I to question it?❤

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Terri,
Thank you for reading the column and for your response. May strength and peace be yours. Bless you.

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Debra Elam avatar

Debra Elam

You know when you have so many emails you skip over some and unfortunately never read them all? Well, that's me. I have 'unsubscribed' from several, but since I was diagnosed with MS last year I registered with the MS Society and have been receiving more emails. I appreciate the articles and information on how to manage this illness. But out of all the things I've read, I am so glad I opened this message. I needed to read this. It renewed my commitment to myself to continue being strong, and to always know that God will not give you more than you can bear. So if I have this illness it is for a reason and I don't doubt that I will shine through all the upsetting things that have been happening in my life. I want to be here to go on and enjoy life and make more strides despite what comes my way. So thank you so much for putting words to what I and so many others needed to hear. God bless you.

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Debra,
Thanks for reading the column and for your heartfelt response. I am glad to know you found some encouragement in the words. May God continue to bless and strengthen you. Always have faith. You are an inspiration.

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Julie Blew avatar

Julie Blew

beautiful...from one chosen one to another...namaste

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Judy,
Thanks so much for your response. You have encouraged me.

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C. Brian Mahood avatar

C. Brian Mahood

It may seem strange, but partly because of my schooling and the subsequent effect that it had on me at university I nowadays almost automatically accept lifes' ups and downs and adapt to them. I still fight, if things appear to be unjust, but I have learnt over time that modifying both what I do and how I approach them has meant that I can achieve more with less angst for both me and my family.

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Teresa Wright-Johnson

Hi Brian,
Thanks for reading the column and for sharing your thoughts. It is true that we have to adapt to all of life's ups and downs. I wish you the best.

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