Our emotional selves are unique to each of us. The catalysts that elicit tears and fears vary. We feel emotions rise and await their eruption. Contrarily, they can catch us off guard. Sometimes a seemingly benign stimulus can invoke strong feelings.
I should know better than to assume that anything is benign. The nature of my multiple sclerosis (MS) makes everything a variable. My recent emotional response was caused by some things that are superior to lesions: hope, knowledge, unity. This was a consortium.
A consortium is an association of two or more individuals or organizations that pool their resources to achieve a common goal.
This was CMSC Seattle 2019.
It was an honor to attend the 2019 Consortium of Multiple Sclerosis Centers annual meeting in Seattle. Though a minnow among whales, I felt part of a passionate community of doctors, researchers, nurses, physician assistants, psychologists, counselors, physical therapists, support staff, patients, and press who came together for one reason: to cure multiple sclerosis.
My emotional gamut was almost inexplicable; it was bubbling over with barely contained excitement. My brain was running the treadmill that my body could not. For someone lacking myelin, my brain experienced some serious pinball wizardry.
My mind broke loose in the exhibition hall. I was familiar with each company and exhibitor, and I understood what most of them did. The synergy was palpable. Then the tears fell.
The release was seismic.
I was left with a feeling of raw authenticity and a sense of belonging unlike any I had experienced before. I was overwhelmed by my surroundings and my reaction to them. Each attendee was present with us in mind. They meet, research, seek, treat, and test in pursuit of the greater good for those of us with MS.
And for that moment in time, I was among them.
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