This Too Shall Pass

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I posted this meme on social media last week with the caption “Current Life Status,” hoping a laugh might help matters. I’m sorry to say things didn’t improve afterward. I’m not a Debbie Downer or a Sad Sack by nature, and I don’t often write about my struggles here because, well, those of us with multiple sclerosis are already fighting a pretty tough battle. You come here to be encouraged, to be informed or to be reminded that you are not alone. To that end, I strive to be a source of humor and levity, to brighten your day a little bit with the words I clack out of a keyboard.

Basically, my theme song last week was Monica’s video, “Don’t Take It Personal (Just One of Dem Days),” not because of MS, but because of my kiddos. I’ll save you the drama and just give a précis of the situation. My husband and I adopted two brothers from foster care this year. (For the purposes of this piece, I’ll call them Thing One and Thing Two.) The adoption was finalized this April, but we’ve had them in our home for two years. And, brother, those 731 days have been challenging, to say the least. Thing One is profoundly deaf, so we’ve had to learn how to be caregivers for a special-needs child. Thing Two is highly intelligent and very strong-willed, a combination that — as of now — has proven to be as delightful as orange juice and toothpaste.

Last week consisted of two visits to their school, one to meet with a teacher and guidance counselor about Thing Two’s disruptive and defiant behaviors. The other was an IEP meeting for Thing One, who is struggling academically. After two years of pouring everything I have into them, it’s tough to be told that though they are improving, it’s far less than I expected. In a way, parenting is like growing and harvesting saffron — laborious, tedious, and exasperating. And last week was just one of those times when I was so tired that it was tough to keep an eye on the end game. But, believe it or not, having multiple sclerosis actually gives me a greater perspective on life’s struggles.

MS is no picnic, mind you. When I was first diagnosed, I honestly thought my life was over. Doctors offered cold comfort at best, and the internet was, well, the internet. No, if I’m honest, it was a digital “Swamp of Sadness” that threatened to drag me down like its character Artax. It was other MS patients who gave me true solace, who told me it was going to be OK. One woman, a friend of a friend, took the time to reach out and call me. I can’t thank her enough for her kindness.

Not only did she provide me with accurate information about medicine and therapy options, but also she told me she’d had the disease for eight years and was doing well. “Your life’s not over,” she told me. “It’ll just be different from now on.” I won’t make it eight years, I thought despondently at the time. But I did. Now, I’m 12 years past that lowest of low moments and still going strong. As Langston Hughes wrote in “Mother to Son,” “I’se still goin’, honey, / I’se still climbin’, / And life for me ain’t been no crystal stair.”

Days like the ones I had last week can undo a person who has never faced real struggles and challenges — who has never stared down something terrible and spit in its metaphorical eye. But I have. I’ve been through something worse than a couple of cantankerous pipsqueaks and come through it smiling. That kind of perspective is invaluable, and it’s one of the reasons I’m glad multiple sclerosis came into my life. The transformation I’m hoping with my kids might be slower than I’d like, but one day “a change is gonna come.” And thanks to MS, I know I’m strong enough to see it through to the end.


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TJ Gordon avatar

TJ Gordon

I hope you have less challenging days & more enjoyable ones with your two boys.

Jamie Hughes avatar

Jamie Hughes

TJ, both of them are amazing little fellas considering all they've come through, and it's a pleasure to get to raise them and watch them grow and flourish. But there are just some days when you get bogged down in the weeds that it is very easy to lose long-term vision. However, most days are wins, and things keep getting better and better. Thank you for the kind words and well wishes.

Gulnar Qurbanova avatar

Gulnar Qurbanova

You are a hero!

Jamie Hughes avatar

Jamie Hughes

I wouldn't say that, but thank you for the high praise, Gulnar. I'm just a person failing over and over again who chooses to get up and try again and again. :)

Linda Evans avatar

Linda Evans

I can totally relate to piece of writing. The days, weeks or moments of struggle that make you question. What am I fighting here ? Why am I fighting ? Can I keep fighting ?
But, the biggest reward comes at the end of each fight. I've made it yet again and guaranteed to have learnt something from the down time.
I sometimes think, ms has dragged me so far down to reality and constantly having to assess what is and isn't ok for me that you so appreciate such small things. I really mean it too. I cry harder, I hurt harder, I struggle harder BUT, I LAUGH SO MUCH HARDER THAN EVER.

Jamie Hughes avatar

Jamie Hughes

Linda, that is so true! We appreciate things differently when our health is compromised. We see things more deeply, appreciate them more fully. And that, in some strange way, is really a gift. Glad to hear the piece resonated with you. Be blessed on the journey!

Karen avatar


Thank you for this article. I have had several challenges in life and each one brought joys greater than any easier time ever provided. I find that friends on the other side of the rabbit hole often don't see the good side of the struggle and I must explain and share it with them. And each challenge has prepared me to better handle the next AND has deepened my awareness to embrace the joy hidden within. I have enjoyed more than 50 years of deep friendship with my brother's wife (he died more than 40 years ago...he was my best friend and his passing devastated me). I felt God's presence at my Mother's passing. My Mother in Law lived with us in her later years and although the challenges were tremendous, the funny memories far outweigh the tough times. I could go on and on but in summary? MS is just another opportunity to more deeply enjoy family, friends, home, the outdoors and all that life offers.

Jamie Hughes avatar

Jamie Hughes

Beautifully said, Karen. Glad to hear the article resonated with you!


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