Into the Woods

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Well, I’m usually fairly upbeat, but this time, it’s going to be beyond me.

We’ve all had relapses — I think I’m in the fitting cliché of being on my last legs. I can, on a good day, transfer on my own from the bed to my trusty commode. But that’s about it. There’s no getting to the lavatory anymore.

I/we are going to have to reorganize our lives. A bedroom downstairs for me, a bathroom that’s more accessible for a wheelchair, a drive designed for wheelchair access, a wheelchair-accessible vehicle (WAV). The list goes on and on.

My days of driving are over. You can get a WAV that you can drive from your wheelchair, but it’s far too excessive for the one time a week I’ve actually been going somewhere on my own (my exercise class). For the moment, I’ve put that in abeyance, too. My wife now has to fill out a 25-page form for both of us (I can’t face it!) and supply it to our local council’s occupational therapists. It can’t be done online as yet — the disabled in crises are confronted by an antediluvian world.

I’ve done what I can to fight this monster. I’ve done two courses of Lemtrada (alemtuzumab), which, believe me, is a hard, hard road in itself. From the moment the drug was infused, my mobility declined and my right hand was also immediately affected. I’m not wimping about it. If you’re lucky enough to get the chance to gamble in extremis, you take it. It doesn’t seem to have worked for me, but hopefully, evidence from my experience will feed into Lemtrada’s development.

On my recent visit with my neurologist, my MRI was good — no changes. The doctor mentioned then that if Lemtrada doesn’t work, they’ve now learned not to continue it.

Well, that’s something.



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Theresa Foss avatar

Theresa Foss

I don't like the amount of work I cause my husband.
I am not bed bound yet, and exercise as much as I can, but nothing is forever .
What happens if he leaves me?

John Connor avatar

John Connor

We're lucky enough to have a family - I've never had to rely on anyone since I was a baby!
There may come a point where I won't want to carry on anyway.
This is no answer but then I am no guru.

Kristin Hardy avatar

Kristin Hardy

Hi John, MS is a nasty hang, no doubt about it. Very sorry to hear about your current issues. Your column has been a reliably bright spot, a mixture of humor and in-the-trenches realism that reflects what a lot of us are dealing with. Thanks for keeping your fans updated on your situation. Your opening comments notwithstanding, I am heartened to see more than a little of what I interpret as irony in your second to last line, plus a whisper of dare I say jauntiness in your sign off. Hang in there – still plenty of pints and whiskey to quaff, even if you need a straw and the assistance of your lovely and talented bride to do it.

Peggy avatar


Sadly can relate to this and since wonderful hubby does driving and all things for me have same fears as Theresa Foss does. For me its his heart health. Have count blessings as able ger motorized wheelchair & van! Yay! But still pissed and mourn loss of walking/driving abilities.


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