MS Doesn’t Get to Decide Whether We Are Enough
“Change is the only constant in life,” a quote paraphrased from Greek philosopher Heraclitus states. This ancient wisdom still prevails today.
Life is in a constant flux. We evolve, we grow, and we shift, and we are never the same. When I suffer, I cling to this knowledge. And when I fear that I’m stagnating, it offers me perspective.
Secondary progressive MS commands that I adapt. I try to keep it simple, because it is easy for me to complicate matters. I sometimes overthink, overanalyze, deconstruct, and so forth. But to what avail? My house of cards is precarious. Unless I am flexible, a crash is inevitable.
I do not find solace in the decision to dominate MS. I do not find peace in the decision to acquiesce to MS. Peace within exists in the ability to move with the ebb and flow of life. It can only happen on a day-to-day basis, and sometimes even minute by minute. When I manage my disease in kind, I can then manage myself. I repeat the Serenity Prayer.
It takes courage to live with multiple sclerosis. Those of us with this disease are strong. All of us. Even you. Especially you. I dedicate this to you.
You may feel defeat, exhaustion, grief, and loss, and yet you are strong. Your strength is not contingent upon your multiple sclerosis — they are mutually exclusive. Your decision to try again is tenacious. Your ability to remain open is your fortitude. You are enough.
I examine my own ability to persevere. MS does not define that ability — I do. The pain, fatigue, insomnia, and cog-fog unravel me from inside out. However, none of these aspects defines me — only I can do that. Does this disease bring me to my knees? Yes. But that moment is transient.
My father offers sage wisdom in his words, ‘This too shall pass.” And it does. It can take time, but it does.
You are more than your MS. I am, too. Multiple sclerosis will always be part of who we are, often more than we would like. But it doesn’t replace you. You are still there.
Recognize the light that shines from within yourself. Perhaps that light is nothing more than a spark right now. But much like a pilot light, it never ceases to exist. If your light is low, borrow a flame and reignite yours. We are here to illuminate one another.
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