Claiming My MS and Accepting the Reality of My Disease

Claiming My MS and Accepting the Reality of My Disease

Growing up in a spiritual family, I can remember hearing the words “we are not going to claim it.” These were words of comfort, hope, and support when a catastrophic event was impending. The dictum was to pray, believe in what you pray for, and to “not claim” whatever was going on.

This week’s column intends to explain what I believe is the difference between claiming a thing and accepting the reality of what is.

Over the holiday weekend, I spent some time with my family, which is always a blessing. A roundtable discussion led me to write this column. We were discussing different ailments and symptoms, and I disclosed my current symptoms, feelings, and concerns regarding my multiple sclerosis. I divulged how my short term memory continues to elude me at times. I explained my concerns regarding my present reality, and the implications for the future with MS.

My loved one told me to stop claiming what is happening or what may happen in the future. Each time I hear these words, their effect on me waivers between comforting and troublesome. Let me explain.

I know there is no intention to insult me. Most people are uncomfortable talking about illness. There was a time when I would have avoided further discussion. I realize now that it is not my responsibility to make anyone feel comfortable talking about the disease that I live with. I realize I don’t have to hide my pain and reality to make others feel better. However, I do recognize the emotional toll an illness can have on my loved ones.

“Don’t claim it.” What exactly am I not supposed to claim? My MS diagnosis that has been confirmed by esteemed medical professionals? Should I not claim the results of the tests that substantiate that diagnosis? What about the lesions on my brain and cervical spine? Should I ignore empirical evidence that’s resulted from years of observation?

Please know that I am not writing this column with an air of contention or a condescending tone. I want to explain that it is counterproductive for me not to claim an illness that I have been diagnosed with. It is here. In black ink, verified by my blood, sweat, tears, nerves, tissues, and fluids. Failing to state my reality is synonymous with failing to accept all of me. The antithesis of acceptance is denial, and I cannot exist in that space.

I can stand in my authenticity because I have accepted my multiple sclerosis diagnosis. I can’t fight a battle without identifying the threat. I don’t know my mission if I am uncertain of my condition. Claiming any disease is difficult, yet it is necessary.

There is power in accepting a diagnosis. Firstly, acceptance allows our minds and spirits to take in our diagnosis. Secondly, it empowers us to address our illnesses on our terms, in our time. Thirdly, it helps us to become informed about our disease, and learn to advocate for ourselves. The fourth reason is that we can then share our knowledge and become advocates for others. Lastly, we accept all that we are.

In closing, I know that when someone says “don’t claim it,” they are encouraging me to think positively. I truly appreciate the sentiment and support behind the words, yet I believe that accepting the reality of my disease does not diminish my optimism. I remain a spiritual and intrepid individual.

In accepting my MS and all that accompanies it, I have hope that I can overcome the disease. I continue to live with passion and compassion. My disease has been named, and I know what I am up against. Now, in claiming it, I say that it will not win.

“Not everything that is faced can be changed. But nothing can be changed until it is faced.” –James Baldwin.

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2 comments

  1. Lielie says:

    I agree with you. I accept my MS, how can I not when all the test results say MS? It does not mean that I do not believe that Jesus can heal me. I believe he can and he will. I dont care about new symptoms, I accept it knowing that God is above these things. I trust in his word when he says he will nullify the things that are with things that are not. So he will nullify the MS and other auto immunity in me. My brother had a major stroke in the perception area of his brain. Looking at the MRI he should be severely disabled but he is not. Doctors just do not know what to think because they just cannot accept or admit and believe in the power of God.

  2. I strongly believe in the Power of God and Jesus Christ. I have been living with MS for about 20 years. My diagnosis is relapsing/ remitting MS and I started treatment shortly after diagnosis. I have a medical background and know there is a possibility of progressing, but I stay positive knowing that I am choosing treatment and my prayers to help maintain my health are being answered. I worked for eleven years with my MS and being treated with Avonex. Am now on disability and was on tysabri almost 2 years. My Doctor had me switch to Tecfidera due to being JC virus positive and that increasing my risk of PVL. I have mild hand tremors and some cognitive symptoms that I take Aricept for. Am thankful to God for the health I have and know he will answer my prayers!

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