Just Because It’s Broken Doesn’t Mean It Isn’t Beautiful
I recently did a little research to write an article reflecting on a photograph of the Library of Celsus. This marvelous piece of architecture was commissioned by a Roman consul named Gaius Julius Aquila as a funerary monument for his father. It was once home to as many as 12,000 scrolls and was the third-largest library in the ancient world, behind Alexandria and Pergamum.
However, much of that collection was lost in 262 A.D. when many scholars believe an earthquake struck the city and the building caught fire. Whatever survived was likely destroyed later that same year when the city was sacked by Goths. Talk about a one-two punch. Yowza!
Only the facade of this amazing structure is left, along with a few of its columns, statues, and scrollwork. So we can only make an educated guess as to how beautiful it was in its heyday. But what remains is still striking and worthy of study and preservation.
That’s how I feel about being a multiple sclerosis (MS) patient sometimes. Sure, I can’t do the things I used to do. Sometimes, my symptoms get in the way of what I want to accomplish. The disease has taken a toll on my body as well as my spirit. But I’m still here.
As the speaker in Langston Hughes’ poem “Mother to Son” says encouragingly, “For I’se still goin’, honey, / I’se still climbin’, / And life for me ain’t been no crystal stair.”
Despite all the challenges, losses, and sacrifices I’ve experienced in my almost 18 years of living with this disease, I’m still a whole person. And for that simple fact alone, I deserve to be loved and cherished, to be valued for who I am as well as what I can do. I’m still beautiful despite it all. And so are you, dear reader. So are you.
We can’t lose sight of that fact in all the hectic craziness of life. Managing MS can sometimes be all-consuming, but we shouldn’t let its demands keep us from remembering that we’re so much more than our symptoms and our diagnosis. If we ever lose sight of that, our humanity will be reduced. We’ll be a little dimmer, a little less ourselves. And that is the real loss. But thankfully, it’s one we can all prevent if we remain mindful of what MS is and who we are, both because and in spite of it.
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